Am I crazy? Or I am not crazy?

Am I really crazy or not?

Let’s begin with a little issue I have, I went to the doctor and said to me I have a psychotic episode, after that, they changed their minds saying I am bipolar, and I was like ok but I don’t feel different at all…

First of all, I was diagnosed with psychotic episodes after that they put it in the psychotic episode with influences in schizophrenia and after that, they told me I was bipolar. Can they make up their minds? What do I have, am I really crazy? Can I take a test saying I am not crazy? How do they judge when they put the stamp calling someone insane for having his own beliefs? How do you tell a person is crazy or not, how can they judge you like that? How do they know for real? How can they be 100% sure that I have a psychotic episode or schizophrenia or I am bipolar, how can they tell for real? I am just as normal as you are, am I afraid? Yes, I am, do you want to know why? Because people have this ability to stock their finger in your face and tell you you are insane for believing different than them, If I believe in Buddha and my father believes in Jesus what is the point in all this, am I the insane one or he is? You can never truly tell if a person is insane or not do you know why? Because that person has it’s own beliefs and it’s own judging capacity, nobody wants to be in a stray jacket, nobody wants to be locked down or to be tied to a bed, nobody wants to be isolated in a building because they say you are insane. Nobody wants to sit in jail, nobody wants to be insane, everybody wants to be free ok?

This is for real if they tell you that you are insane or they diagnose yourself with a mental disease you are probably going to get locked up. They treat you like you are in a penitentiary, you are not allowed to call or have any contact with the outside world, you just sit there with a bunch of crazy people (just like you) and stare at the walls, of the building, they say you are insane to have a reason to tie you up, to lock you up like in prison saying you are a threat to society. Is that even true? I mean I didn’t hurt anybody but there I am locked in a mental hospital because I choose to have my own rights and privileges, because I wanted to make a change, because I wanted to show people there are many ways you can view a problem, but people are so limited man you can never tell if he’s actually speaking the truth or even lying to oneself…

The beer is restricted I am not allowed to drink alcohol, I am not allowed to drive, I have to take medicine in the morning and by nightfall. I usually take my medicine at about 8:30 am, and the other one at about 9 pm.

I take pills in the morning and I take pills at night so I can sleep better, lol.

Like I have a problem man this is insane how people judge you, do you sleep, do you believe, do you breathe? How can somebody tell me I am insane if all I do is mind my own business, people should research this on the web, I’m not saying that doctors are bad I’m just saying that they are evil, they do not have the capacity to judge because it has been taken from them.

The system

The system

The system is made for us to know what is better , the path we chose in life or our habitats.

The system is made for people like me who follow deep thought patterns along the way.

The system has built in hydraulic patterns that govern all kinds of speacies.

The system was made for us to flourish not by mean and awful things we believe in.

The system is our kingdom to come by the Love of our God almighty in the heavens.

The system was built to protect and serve it’s inhabitants.

The system was built for a secure way to manage your funds when you don’t have none to spare.

The system takes care of our daily chores activities like walking on water and breathing.

As a Pharaoh I need this system to survive and make something out of this to conquer the whole world with it, the system is prepared for whatever it may encounter along the way. The system will merge and evolve to new patterns when it has reached it’s limit, the system will go on and on and on with nothing to do but just to exist on this planet.

Alone.

Same old same old

Aren’t you afraid of doing the same stuff over and over again?

Walking the same path to work…

Doing on the same job you’ve been doing the last few years…

Eating the same old stuff you’ve been eating…

Drinking the same old beverages you’ve been drinking…

I just thought about something this afternoon while I was out.

Why do we stick up and are stuck up on the same old road to the neverland?

Why are we in the same place we used to be 5 years ago?

Why don’t we learn anything new each day.

Why don’t we experience something new each day.

They say true love is a blessing but I’m thinking more like of a marriage kind of love to be real now.

I’m thinking more like “Will you marry me?” Sounds like ” I need someone to get old with”

So when you marry I am just suggesting that you know and are responsible enough for your actions sort of speak.

Marriage is not a loss in fact it is a gift not all of us may share with each other.

Marriage is just like eating a pie. You eat a bit see how it taste if you like it you eat a lot more but if you don’t then it’s garbage can.

What am I saying here? The reason I am writing to you all of this is because my personal and first of all marriage proposal went terribly wrong I mean from fighting to calling on the police and pressing charges against one another is another way of viewing it.

This is what happened to me I don’t know for all of you how it went but me, in this position as I am today? I would be very careful and calculated before I marry I mean listen, there are two things you should be afraid of, the first one is not getting into shape I mean not doing enough exercise or sports, and the second is not training your mind quite as much as you want to.

This brings me to the next chapter of my life which is :

  1. Sport.
  2. Reading.

One of these two I do a lot less than the other but I need to focus now on building and a lot less at destroying stuff around me, so here it goes.

No ordinary

I am not your ordinary friend, I am not your ordinary dude, I am great, I am the greatest, I am the best, I am the most beautiful person you will ever meet, I am the God of all men and women, no matter the race or skin color I am the God of all life and living beings cone to me for peace quiet and love to all mankind.
I am the King of all, I am the universe combo ed into one entity
I am the one.
I am visible public and sharing with you guys my own knowledge and experiences.
This is my life, I am the ruler of my own life, this is my path, I am the ruler of my own path and my own way, I am the ruler of my own destiny.
If I fail you all fail with me, so never give up on your dreams no matter how big they may be.